Nights of prayer and worship are always such a blessing. A good chance to just be able to humble yourself at His feet, pray with others and just think where the Lord is leading you in your life. Saturday was one of those nights and it was awesome to be able to just sit alone with God. Thinking things through asking for guidance most of the night, it brought me into such a humble state of mind and I just felt like God was speaking directly to me through the word. I LOVE it when you need guidance and you open your bible right to the perfect verse! The Lord works in amazing ways.
As the night was starting to come to an end and the worship team were playing their last few songs, it hit me so clearly. For a while now, I have been 'searching' if you will, for something to in a way 're-new' my faith. Because this past year is really when I came close to God. This year has been a year of trials, blessings, and a year of growing in Him. I have never took my faith seriously. I always went to church and was really involved in the youth group and everything but was always secretly thinking in my head, "I can't wait for service to be over so I can socialize." That was always my mind set at church. I have always connected to God the most in worship and that was the only thing keeping me going on the right track back then although of course my relationship with God could have been a million times better. I am so thankful He gave me the desire to be close to Him.
It came into my head, I could get rebaptized. I know I am saved, but I wanted to publically show I am serious now about my faith. I got baptized when I was either 8 or 9. I did because my mom and sister were doing it but I really had no clue what it was about. I knew you got dunked under water and came out 'new'. That's about it. This time, it's something I feel God has put on my heart instead of following my family. I was meditating on this verse:
‘And now why do you wait? Rise and be baptized and wash away your sins, calling on his name.’ Act 22:16
It's pretty heavy on my heart. I'm praying about it and seeing what He wants.
When you said, "I am so thankful He gave me the desire to be close to Him," you totally made me think! It's spot on Kelsey :)It's awesome to meditate on this because we realize that it's Him doing all the work... it's not like the desire randomly pops into our hearts because our minds led us there abruptly. It's that the Lord has the ability and goes to the extent of putting that desire in our hearts... not that we're robots in control of a grand supreme master and we have no escape, like of some tyrannus ruler, but more so that such a gracious God would call us to Him... to call us to nothing but goodness, true love, and to just abide in Him :)
ReplyDeleteAnd how direct is Acts 22:16!? The Lord is SO good.
It's so good to read of how the Lord's working in your life Kels! So encouraging :)
Love you <3