Where am I going?

This question. Eating at me constantly. As I sit here meditating on it. Seeking answers. Lord, please give me direction. Why is this driving me crazy? Why can't I be at peace with it? I'm so young. Too young to be worrying about this perhaps? Why there? Is there something I'm not seeing? Is there something I am meant to do in this city? Or is it just my mind leading me to think I am supposed to be there? How would I do it? Am I too young to be planning this? What should I do? Could I do this? Why is this kinda extremely heavy on my heart? Where do I go from here? What are the next steps?